“Always do the thing you fear the most. Courage is an acquired taste, like cavier.”
– Erica Jong
Well I am finally taking the plunge and starting my own blog. I have been resistant to doing so even though I have known about and read many others for years. So I ask myself what is my resistance to doing this about? One thing I have learned about myself over the years is that answers to such questions are usually the result of fear. So the real question is what are the fears that have been holding me back from writing a blog?
A few answers come to me as I ponder this question. Fear of nothing worthy to say. Fear of exposing my thoughts to the world. Fear that no one will read it. Fear that if others do read it, they will disagree or worse reject me. Fear of being or perceived by others as inadequate in some way. All those old self-sabatoging thoughts come rushing back …”Who do I think I am to think I am worthy enough to… whatever?”
Then I remember how I gathered the courage for overcoming other events I feared in my life. Reflecting on these occurances, I recall how doing so I was able to realize significant personal and professional growth. This is not to say it was all smooth as soon as faced fear and took action. There were challenges making it very difficult at times. I made mistakes and I have not always been accepted or liked by others. And this was okay too because through adversity I learned even more, gained confidence and was able to help others more. Funny how that works.
So with this in mind, I embark on this new experience of starting a blog to share my thoughts and experiences with whomever wishes to partake. And who knows, maybe along the way what is written resonates, imparts some wisdom or give permission to others do the same. Let the adventure begin.
“We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? …playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you …We are all meant to shine…And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” – Marianne Williamson